Since the Beginning

Two winters and a summer without you
Just one day in-between
A day filled with anxiety and fear
I wish I could rewind my days
Past the tear-filled nights
And the blood-covered arms and legs
Past the blood-shot eyes
To the first time I had a chance
We had a chance
Didn't we?
Could we have kept it all in secrecy?
Would that have been right?
You deserved me in complete
What if we ended it before we fell in love?
Would that have been possible?
What if we were in love since the beginning?
What if it always would have been too late?