ThaTrollWhoEatsYou

I know it has been months. Despite the fact that it feels like decades. And I have never for a second had a moment without you in my head. You used to be what I dreamed about. Now you grace my nightmares. You taunt me. Bending your finger to say: "Come hither," enticing me with your tantalizing smile. That smile of yours. The smile that can bring men and women of any stature to their knees. They would easily confess their undying love to you. Just like I always had. So what made me different? You chose me, Once upon a time. I belonged to you. I had no desire to belong anywhere other than in your arms. And the sound of your voice still e

I found your name. It was barely visible on my pale skin, where I carved it years ago, right where I left it. I did that when I lost you the first time. I never thought that I'd keep losing you. That you'd keep slipping from my grasp everytime I got just a little bit too close. And every time I would extend my fingers to graze your skin, you were further than I had calculated. I'm still reaching out. Do you see me? Can you hear my voice? Calling out your name. Echoing in the distance, like drops of water after a storm, dripping into a puddle. Can you feel me? Can you feel my breath against your skin? On the back of your neck, where yo

So I can't hold your hand     So I can't whisper in your ear          So I can't brush my lips on your neck Chills travel across my body      I whimper when I'm dreaming of you            Spasms embrace me with the anxiety of my mind Who exactly am I?   A minion of chaos?      A slave to your love.. I am.. You make me this person.. A carrier of doom To all that I formerly believed

I am not a damsel in distress    I am not going to wash your feet        With long golden locks, on my knees    Crying out to you so that, one day, You can accept me as I'm not I don't want to be a woman    I do not wish to become a man        I choose to free myself from gender    I choose to be me and not her I choose to differ from him I guess I'm in the middle    I guess I'm not there at all        I guess you can say I'm no one    I guess I'm not even writing I guess your wasting time

I would take your hand    And waltz you around the room        If I could only reach you somehow I would whisk you away    From all these unkind people        If I could just build up the nerve I would whisper in your ear    Ever so quietly on your neck        Every urge you bring forth in me I would bring you joy so unimaginable    And your heart would rejoice with mine        And we would lay, once again, side by side

Oh sleep! Why do you share your glory, Naught with me? Why do you not cease your fleeing, Whilst I follow you along the path To the land where the dreams be? Why do you tease me with fragments Of what could be sweet relief To my humble heart? Why do you prevent me From being one with you? My precious long-forgotten sleep...

I'm looking in the mirror Whose body is this? Is this me? Do I even have these sexual organs? Who is this person looking back at me? This person whose eyes wander my unclothed body.. I've fallen to the floor.. So has she.. Is she mocking me? I feel cold.. My thighs.. My.. parts.. I'm wet.. I look down.. What is this liquid? I touch it.. My fingers, wet.. I study this crimson substance covering me.. Is this what they use to define me.. A woman.. What is a woman? A label plastered across my body? A sign turning me into a target? Is that all I am? Prey for man? Is he stalking me now? Hunting me like a lion? Planning to imprison me as a spouse? M

I had a dream You were there And so was she... Yes even her I was dying Not a very sad thought really You were holding my hand Telling me to stay I knew I couldn't You begged me not to leave you again She stayed by your side In the way I couldn't I looked up and smiled at both of you I didn't want to go Not truly But it was my time I took her hand in my free one And thanked her For taking care of you when I couldn't For easing the pain I had caused And to continue doing so And with those words I left you One final time

To find out the one you love The one you thought would wait Gives up Moves on? Well, I can't stop shaking My voice comes out a crack The lunch I didn't eat is threatening to crawl up my throat But even worse? It's my own fault I couldn't handle it I couldn't leave everything behind They broke me Like I was a wild horse being tamed But still... You gave up You were the last person I expected that from I thought we were in love Just when I thought I was close again I find out you've moved on You referred to me as the past And with my friend I can't hate her Why me? Why us? Why us who get cursed in our love? Am I right to expect you to